Inedia, Breatharianism, Non-Eating, Living on Light, Fasting.

[Awareness]

breakfast 845-945
4 mangosteens
1300g of apple bananas

lunch 330-430
1/7th of a pineapple juiced in mouth
200g cucumber
175g orange

dinner 5-6+
8 oz "soursop tea"
700g apple bananas
300g wok bananas


meditated 3 hrs
stood on hands 1 min
stretch 15 min

made "soursop tea" from rainwater + soursop leaves about 1.5L water + 60ish leaves+ boiled for like an hour. hopefully this will help get rid of my "cyst"

took a few hours off of work today and just rested in my tent, was super nice to do. feeling pretty drained now, but could be worse. i usually work like 5 hrs per day and sometimes it's pretty challenging so it's not like i'm not exercising because i'm lazy : )

also i've been eating so many different foods at one meal that it's hard to keep track of it allbut i've been editing in as i remember.

i want to write a little more aobut what life is like living at the center here but it will have to wait til i have time.

[Awareness]

5.2.2014
always crushed for time;

8-9 breakfast
1 wok@150g
800g apple banana
12 oz soursop potion ( 1 st thing )
2 papaya 400g total

lunch 12-1
1/2 cuce 150g
mango 100g ( junk imported?? one )
700g apple banana
150g wok banana
2 papaya @450g

dinner
3 orange 450g
cuce 250g
4 star apple ( too latexy not liking)
300g apple banana
had a decent amnt of coconut meat mature but just chewed up in mouth then spit out when changed flavour

will meditate 3 hrs
TONS TONS of mosquitoes here really upsetting me
more later
10-15 min stretching
30 sec hand stand

[Awareness]

5.3.2014
started the day with strong determination not to eat or talk , just kind of didn't go work...

ended up going for a walk and ate some marang i and my new friend ( who i talked to of course haha)
had maybe 0.3m of sugarcane at 2pm
maybe 450g marang flesh at 2:30-3 pm

was grateful to make a new friend, just rested most of the day yesterday
sat for 4 hours in meditation hall

was really low on energy but feeling a lot better and more optimistic today.

[Awareness]

5.4.2014

~9am 5/8 pineapple juiced in mouth
930am 550g apple banana + 150g wok + 100g red cuban

1130-2 pm
800g tomatoes
800g cucumber
75g chico sapote

3:30pm 200g cucumber
4:30 pm 1400g durian (400g edible flesh w.o seeds
4:30-6pm a lot of marang, maybe 700g+ edible flesh w.o seeds
one of the marangs i had was the best fruit i've had in my life by far

really ate a lot today but it's ok i've forgiven myself ; )

meditated 3 hrs
when i meditated from 230-330 i really was having a full stomach, iended up lying down for like 40 of the 60 minutes, which i really don't like to do, i like to always be sitting up. sometimes i do more meditation lying down like before sleep or when i wake up but i don't really count it unless i'm sitting up. which is kind of crazy because sometimes i go deeper into meditation lying ddown because i'm so relaxed, but it's also certainly possible to fall asleep
really felt lousy from overeating so much , just too much in stomach, but at least i guess fruit passes thru pretty quickly.
stood on hands 1 minute
stretched 10 minutes

am a bit "worried" about sitting this 10 day meditation course because there's not big amounts of fruit there... and i don't really want to eat any cooked food especially salt. so , although i won't be fasting, it will be like i eat 5-600 calorie breakfast and then don't take another meal all day, and meditate like 8+ hrs every day. so we'll see how it goes. this is the meditation i'm doing right now www.dhamma.org - vipassana as taught by s.n. goenka. maybe as time goes on i'll give my thoughts on the technique- i definitely think it's worth checking out and sitting a course if it's convenient to you. every technique has its pluses and minuses, but if you can take the best from every technique / experience there is a lot to be gained.

[Awareness]

~8:30 am maybe 150g of marang flesh
~10 am 500g oranges 300g cucumbers
noon juiced 1/2 pineapple, ate about 900g rollinia incl flesh+seeds
+150g cucumbers
1pm had maybe 3kg of marang, maybe ate 1200g of flesh
230 pm had maybe 225g cucumber
330pm had maybe 225 cucumber
530pm ~125g marang flesh, 250g? cucumber

i feel much better with 2 or 3 distinct meals of course, don't feel like writing more. meditated 3 hrs today, sitting from 230-330 on really full stomach was tough. meditation hasn't been easy lately, just thoughts racing the whole time it seems.
stretched 10-15 min, will hopefully do a few more before sleep. hopefully this marang tree stops producing or i get sick of it or someone else gets to all the fruit before me... i don't really mean that though.

[Awareness]

bfast 8-9
225g mamey sapote
2 red cuban bananas

bfast #2 10:40
400g cucumber

lunch #1 12
~225g marang flesh
400g cucumber

lunch#2 12-3:15
~1-1.2kg marang flesh

dinner #1 4:30 400g cucumber

dinner 5:30-5:50
~350g rollinia flesh

will meditate 3 hrs today, missed 230-330, going to go from 6-8 : ) : ) ! ahhh. Big day tomorrow, hopefully won't be up too late but I have some obligation after 8pm which i'm not happy about really. But i will duck out early hopefully.

Anyways, i biked about 4 miles today, can't really write more as always due to time time time !
barely did any stretching just a few minutes, will at least stand on hands 1 minute now before i sit : ) this marang tree is amazing i was up probably 30 or 40 feet in it doing some risky things i guess to get fruit but didn't seem that risky and it's such an addicting intoxicating fruit.

also been sunny here, sungazed for a solid 15+ minutes this morning r.eally happy about that, the weather is turning for the better here it seems. xoxo. glad to c lovedimension going at it again too!

[Awareness]

5.7.2014
was posting fliers this day for dhamma.org, really draining, don't know if going into polluted city, driving around in a van, or talking to say many kind of agitated people ...really really did not like it.

also hanging out at the market and smelling durian was kind of torture, it's like 4.50 per pound, and most of the weight is shell, so i would say the flesh is like 11-12$ a pound. not sure on this estimate though i haven't bought or opened or ate many of them yet : )

730 am 600g marang flesh
930 am 400g cucumber
11 am 1 mangosteen
noon maybe 125ml of sugar cane juice
2 pm 500g oranges
2-4 pm 1800g lychees ( just in season starting now )
4-6 pm 1200g cucumbers

so i ate really a lot but no banana or avocado, but i couldn't sustain without those for longbecause they're such cheap staples here

meditated 3 hrs
stretch 10-15m
hand stand 1min

also did some major shopping. got another backpack for $2. and bought and ok machete for 23$ brazilian steel , about as good as a $3 one in kenya : )

now today ( 5.8 ) not planning to work so, think i'll see if any marang left to forage, hope to take it easy today, we'll see what happens. really hoping to dry fast on saturday , it seems like this will be a good day as the food is running low this day and its the day before the market, we'll see how i feel then. been re-reading hilton hotema man's higher consciousness a little bit but getting tired of books right now

[lovedimension]

You live in a fruitarian paradise I'd swap this with the constant wet and cold of South Wales, UK, if I could.

It's interesting to read your account of things.

peace x

[Awareness]

5.8.14

8-9 600g marang flesh
10 675 cuce
12-3 50cm sugarcane, 2 kg marang flesh
430-5 350g cuce, 1 mangosteen, 1.5 figs ( bird got other 1/2 )

did a lot of weeding this day and cutting down some pretty big trees with just machete, probably worked real hard for 2 hours, cleared off some citrus trees, one of whom might be dead but you never know, really pretty satisfying work that i just chose because i wanted to.
meditated 3 hrs
was real tired but still did some stretching and hand stand at end of day.

[Awareness]

5.9.14
sat 3 hours
815-945
200g marang flesh
400g avo w pit
400g tomatoes
275g cucumber

1030
450g cuce
40cm sugarcane
2 figs

1230
400g tomatoes
375g avo w pit
??
250g orange
??
300g marang flesh
5-6
450g tomatoes
900g cucumber

hard to read my notes but i think i got all the food at least if not in right order

[Awareness]

5.10.14

830-930
450g avo flesh without pits
750g tomatoes

20cm sugarcane
~11AM
~1L+ coconut water
350g young coco meat
was eating and socializing w this girl under the coco tree and telling her about my family, she probably wanted to kill herself : )
2PM
400g coco meat

3:45PM
300mL coco water
3 figs
3 star apples barely swallowed anything but liquid

5-6PM
350g coco meat
400mL wata
225g cucumber

went to bed pretty early, like 730ish with a slight headache
worked a few minutes weeding bananas
few minutes sunbathing
pretty much lounged around all day. didn't really work. did a few stretches.
also i cut my arm up pretty good on friday with a sickle type tool attached to a stick that i was using to capture marangs. also today woke up saturday with some like pus coming out of my knee
doing really well lately. not looking forward to starting up with the work tomorrow but it will be ok : )

[Awareness]

5.11.2014

last night b4 bed i found some white discharge on my penis which i dont know when it happened but i never experienced waking up with a sticky leg or a huge energy drain like i always do with a nocturnal emission. so i don't really know what happened there, but was something must of happened in my sleep.

really had another epic ( epic fail maybe haha ) day of eating today.
i woke up pretty thirsty today which is rare for me, and i was kind of surprised considering how much more fluid i took yesterday than normal.
8AM~
700mL coconut water
1400g marang flesh ( about 4.5 marangs, i shared the last 0.5 cause was kind of full )
175g avo flesh
~930 a bit later 300g coco meat young


noon ( somehow i made my way to the market on such an already full stomach )
400g lychee
150mL sugarcane juice
150g mamey sapote

2;30
350g cuce
300g coco meat
200g chico sapote

4pm
400g cuce

5pm ( now)
chugged 500mL of soursop tea ( just boiled leaves+water)

hopefully done for the day haven't done much exercises going to stretch at least 15 min and stand on hands 1 min, might sungaze if it comes out, been sunny a lot lately sort of been taking for granted. pretty lazy day which of course comes with overeating.

i'm having doubts about the climate here, it's too hot and the air feels a little stale even though i mean the air is pretty decent it's not like awful but -- been reading hilton hotema and missing other higher elevation places i once stayed for a short time. may look in to a higher elevation location around here but we'll see not a major emergency or anything but i dont know if i want this to be my permanent home : ( as nice as it is in many aspects.

[Awareness]

yesterday ( sunday night ) i moongazed a bout 10 minutes, only about 2 minutes sungazing though.

sungazed 20-30 minutes
830-9
300 marang flesh
300g chico sapote

1030
700g cuce

12-1
7 papayas maybe 1kg flesh

530-630
300mL soursop tea
3.5 papayas 600g? flesh
my notes say i had 50g cucumber but seems unrealistic, maybe 500? don't really remember

moongazed 5 minutes
had some pain and swelling in this spot maybe 5cm left of my penis
left leg started looking infected and some pus coming out.

[Awareness]

my friend told me on monday like OMG you have staph infection you gotta go to hospital and get antibiotics and he was just really fearful and i was like eh whatever i don't wanna go.

5.13.14 tuesday
3 hrs meditation today, assume 3 hrs every day unless i say otherwise.
sungazed 20 minutes
was upset today because someone took my personal food ( 1 x marang ) and I kind of felt like it was mine but I didn't label it or anything, and I would of done the same thing if i found a ripe marang lying around. So... I really had no reason to be upset. but I was cause I'm crazy. Anyways I started my own personal food stash later on this day because I spend a long time foraging for food and it really tasted better than anything you can buy at the market, and I mean- I foraged it so it's mine I know maybe this sounds possessive haha- maybe it is. So be it.

830-9 few bites of marang
300g soursop tea- tasted kind of fermenty so I tossed it after this.
450g mamey sapote

9-11 800g cucumbers

12-1230
1/12th pineapple
150g chico sapote
200g marang flesh

2pm
3 mangosteen
75g marang flesh
500g oranges
200g cucumber

5-6pm
3 papayas maybe 500g flesh?
1 mangosteen
175g avocado ate almost all of it, spit out a bit

[Awareness]

5.14.14
sungazed 4 minutes
8-9 1.2kg watermelon flesh
12-1 1.1kg watermelon flesh
550g chico sapote


5-6 750 chico sapote
3 mangosteen
250g marang flesh
200g avocado
few bites mamey sapote

sungazed 6 more minutes at night